confession of the galaus *5

I thought, there's a bilion reason for me, to not only look at you always.. back at you.. be with you..

that's pretty hard in the beginning.. but i keep trying to survive.. even you just come and go as you like..

yaaa.. yaaa.. yaaa.. I lie!! that's very hard.. so much more hard.. but i don't wanna seems like in the tread mil.. keep walking, but still in the same place.. what's that for?
i keep trying to give, and you keep trying to receive.. but not from the deepest of our heart..

moreover, i thought you have another thought of me.. you want something more right? and you realize that you won't get it from me..
ya.. you right! totally right!! i will never be like that.. i will never be alike as what you dream of..
so what's the hell things which makes you come to me always? what's makes you always visitting me.. enter my peacefull life and leave it bad..

why do you keep coming??

it's not easy man! it's not easy at all when all I could do is just welcoming, by knowing that you will leave me soon..