I finally met him [memori 7 tahun yang lalu]

you must be still remember guys.. that my last post is related to this kind of things too..
and yes, I finally met him!

semalem gu baru tidur jam 4 (abis sahur).. there's so many sharing story with my roomate.. cerita tentang jaman kita waktu masih sekolah SD dan SMP dulu.. waktu jaman2nya ngegebet kakak kelas (cowok) dan dilabrak rame2 sama kakak kelas (cewek) dan temen2nya.. (tua banget g sih kesannya.. T.T)

I shared that my elementary school time is the worst time ever in my educational field.. that's why I just take it slow waktu Marshanda maki2 temen SD nya di vidio gila bikinan dia dan di upload sendiri.. karna, yes! elementary school friends are s*ck..

masa SMP gu juga gak terlalu indah2 amat karena there's some friends which come from the same elementary school.. and there always the worst one..

sharing sampe lupa waktu.. kita baru bener2 tidur, abis sahur.. and wake up at 9 am.. hehe..
so we're taking care of ourself and leave the room at 10.30 am..
ke rektorat, ngambil toga, jajal toga, bayar tropi + foto and so on, we're home to jakarta at 1 pm..
the bad news: kereta AC gak ada.. naik ekonomi.. :'(

sampe tebet, gu gak tahan.. panas bgt aje.. akhirnya naik taksi sampe rumah.. tidur2an bentar, beres, beres, beres, azan, minum, solat, berangkat ke reunion location..

sampe sana, disambut dengan hangat sama my best friends always RISA.. cipika-cipiki, she bring me to a group of man, whom I can't remember them all.. hahaii..
first of all, she said: "ni kaa.. musuh lu.. alan!"
eeeh?? alan is my enemy? since when?
so, I just say to him: "haai alaaan.. apa kbr?"
sambil tetep majang senyum semanis mungkin *yg gu bisa.. ya karena, cuma itu yang bisa gu lakuin..
trus ada zaki, entah siapa lagi, bagus, entah gu lupa, dll.. they all welcome.. trus ke another table..

prediksi tentang alan kan ada 2, dia tetep nakal, atau tobat.. and the correct answer is the first one..

gu duduk di pojok.. karena cewek2 yg dateng, bukan temen maen gu dulu, this position paling aman dh..
alan duduk persis tegak lurus meja gu.. (we're in the different table)
I see him (his eyes).. walaupun matanya gak sebening dulu.. gu masih bisa ngeliat sisa2 kegetiran masa lalu on it.. cuma, sekarang hampir g keliatan.. gu sampe perlu waktu yg agak lama buat ngeliat dia.. I don't know itu smw disengaja atau dunia ini emang terlalu keras buat dia..
gu ngerasa dia berubah.. gak sama lagi sama alan yg gu kenal dulu..
gu gtw apa yg terjadi sama dy after that day, tp dy keliatan lebih gak peduli.. sama dirinya, sama lingkungannya, he looks like care to nothing..
gak tau kenapa gu bisa nulis gini.. mungkin efek ekstra lebay!?

just the same like in the past, we're talk less.. but eye contact more..

Hmpfh.. yaudahlah.. gu gak punya hak atas hidup dia..
he take the whole control of his life, he choose to be like this.. he's not wrong.. it's totally right for him.. yg penting, gu udah tau kabar dia sekarang, gu tau kalo dia sehat, dan yg terpenting he still exist in this earth..
so, let's continu our life again..

tapi, gu g akan menyangkal kalo memang pernah ada dia di hati..
hehhe.. :p